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Two different families into one
Everything started to change for me, as the oldest I had huge responsibilities in the house and over my smaller siblings. After years of struggling, feeling pain, and all the scars and tears others have put into my life my life at this moment was about to change because my mom was finally getting married for the second time to a man who i know will make her happy. Both our families are very different, ours is more happy and with joy, where as, the new member, his kids were quiet, and unique. -
First Fight
One Thursday morning, a girl pushed me so hard I felt my insides. It all started because she saw something about me she didn't like. I was the new girl, the quiet, shy, most miserable outsider from the crowd. Of course, after this incident, I started to become a little rebel, always giving people dirty looks and making my own friends that influenced me to do terrible things. Everyone looked at me as if they'd known me for years. I was no longer the shy, innocent girl, but a trouble maker. -
A new open door
I walked into a dark room filled with wonderful music of god. at first it felt weird but then i felt my body flow within the music. I felt this fire and heat raise upon my body, and soon i saw a light, a beautiful light. That day changed my life, I was no longer a trouble maker but a chosen dancer at my church. I've made a good decision to join dance because i never knew something so unique could fill me up. Through worship I changed into a better person, everyone knows me of. -
My sweet 16
My sweet 16 was honestly one of the best days of my life. I had an amazing time with my friends and family. I started dancing so much my toes started to bleed and my legs were cramping up. Living in Arizona, the weather was hot and everyone began to sweat; sitting or dancing. We had all types of music, and my family didn't have that much money to have this one huge party, but all i can say is that i'm so blessed to have such a strong mother who made this happen. -
New opportunities
Years have passed and now I'm starting my 1st year of Sports Medicine. Besides dance, helping people has always been something i've wanted to do for the rest of my life. In this journey, i got to be with two amazing teachers who helped me open doors to my career; anatomy teacher and sports med teacher. After months of learning i was soon, less than a year, get a certificate indicating my years accomplished with Anatomy and Medicine.I'm a changed person, all thanks to the light god brought to me. -
My down fall
Despite of my happiness with life and making everyone proud, inside I felt lost; lost in the air with no one to turn to. I thought I had everything right, but I didn't. I'm not the perfect girl nor the most reasonable one, because every day of my life since I was little, has been full of pain; due to the abandonment of my father. Everything gets to me, my father left and never turned back to his little innocent new born, years later, he came. 10 years without him, how would I forgive him? -
My first solo
It was a 3day weekend full of amazing moments! Feeling the butterflies that never left, I got my first solo. I couldn't be anymore blessed, for I have worked so hard each practice, coming home with cuts and bruises on body. The day of my solo, I came upon a feeling, which was known as the holy spirit. Through dance, I was able to push away every pain, abandonment, and regret out of my life; I felt brand-new. My pastors prayed for me without knowing the depression I had fallen in, and I was free. -
My New Years Eve
Revealing the truth is probably the hardest thing one has to do but it makes life a little easier once its out. I recently in late November found out I was pregnant. How could I be expecting, if I was just 16 years old? Telling my mom was so hard. Seeing the disappointment in her face made me fall once again into a complete cloud of regret and sadness. Every night I ran to my room and under the sheets, crying myself to sleep. I almost gave up my baby, but god came in and took over; a connection. -
Facing reality
Accepting the changes in my body was new to me of course, everyday i felt loved by something so small; a little life and light to my heart. Today i found out that this little fetus growing of me was a little girl; my heart was filled with joy. The room around me was dark and cold, the gel put on my belly was cold; I soon saw my little one. A little life growing inside of me was probably the most wonderful thing to have ever happened to me. I got to call it my own and later it will call me mom. -
Bundle of joy
Today i'm enjoying every minute of my pregnancy, i've faced so many obstacles and pain that I overcame. Imagine being me for one day, knowing everyone around you started to come together and look at you different because you're carrying a child. I stopped going to church because it didn't feel like home anymore, everyone around me gave me looks of shame that kept putting me down. I woke up stronger today, living every moment. I will soon be a mommy in August 2016, and now its time to enjoy it.
