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5.2: Identify
I have had identify confusion during my high school time and it took me for 4 years.I have tried figure it out if I prefer man or woman when I had my sexual experience with both, but I was still confused, until my senior year,I realized there was sexual orientation, where there are variety of sex preference,which I am bisexual.Also,I have tried to analyze myself into which I am deaf person or cochlear implant-hearing person,until I finally take both those identifies down and focus most of myself -
5.1: Infant Attachment
I don't remember during 9 to 18 months, but when I was 4 years old and I have strange notice of living a man who was my father. My mother have never introduce me to my father and I have been confused and scared. By living with him, I have avoid from getting to know him, avoid the attach to him. It have took couple years to get used to him and didn't realized I have had attachment to my father while i realized i have had more attachment to my mother. -
5.3A: Gender
When I was 8 years old,my parent have taught me to keep your nakedness in private, which I have never understood and I tried identify all genders and witness the opposite sex by taking a bath with my little brother. I have thought all gender were the same as mine. When I was little, I wanted to be a boy which I was a tomboy while I was living with my father, because I witness of men's behavior but when I was with my mother, she took to ballet and which I learned how to act like a girl. -
5.3B: Sexuality
September 1st, 2015. My first relationship was Luke, I was very different because I never experience into relationships. I realized it was more than, just a relationship, because everyone have their own sexual preferences. There different ways of growing and learning each other during relationship, getting used to each other, knowing their habits, their preferences, their personal likes and many more. I can compare to relationships with friends and family.