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Birth
Uh I didn´t come out crying because big gorals don´t cry EMOtionless -
PreschoolGrad and Getting my Cat
Graduating Preschool was sad because I knew I wouldn´t see these people much as I grew older. Therefore I bugged my parents to get me a kitten to grow old with. The day after graduation we got a orange striped tabby cat my child Speedy. We named him Speedy because he would get super hyper/crazy then run all around the house then hide and wait for me to go close and jump on my leg. He also thinks he´s a dog because he was raised by my dogs. I love my cat he´s my #1 -
Entering Elementary
Entering elementary would be rough. It was a new enviorment of people Id have to deal with for 7 years. With that I was greatly influenced in good and bad ways. I was never myself because I was trying to be what others wanted me to be. So I dealt with being bullied for being me or what they made me out to be. I was an outcast that no one truly accepted. I didn't realise I needed to change myself for me until 8th grade. Elementary really shaped me. -
Kindergarten
I was a social butterfly in my young days that being said I was naive and almost ate a worm because someone dared me too. I wasn't no kitty and still am not. I didn't do it though because I felt bad for the worm. So I supplemented it with grass and ants. Because I was tough it gained me some "friends". Like this boy named Rene he was my first boy bsf and big crush that I still carry till this day because he coo. Although it all fail off in daycare. -
Daycare Loner
Rene was in daycare with me in which we became "close". We fail off tho I think cause I lied to him bout having a haunted chucky doll idk if that's the real reason he parted tho. I made friends like Hannah,Pablo,Carly, Shylan and etc. All playing a parts in my life. Hannah being long term friend I'm still in contact with unlike the rest. We all grow apart though I don't blame them. They're still important to me till this day because they imprinted themselves in me. -
3-6 Grade
3rd Grade when I was a physical&emotional mess. Wearing glitter T's,pattern leggings, tutus and hightops. I met lots of peeps like my ExBsf a friendship that was more unstable then ur table you can't lean on. Were we fail for the same guy and hated the same person. Unfortunately 6th grade is when it really ended because she ignored me in camp keep and turned our group against me. So I was left alone again until a group of girls offered me there genuine friendship. Then I was welcomed. -
Rebel 7
Leaving Elementary was one of the most relieving things in my life. I had so many regrets and now entering Jr. High I felt I could finally be myself without expectations and control. I was right at first. Although 7th grade was hard education wise nothing happened much I made new friends and I carried on. I think I was so rebellious then because I had anger within. I got into lot of trouble with my history teacher. Also dicthing class to go to the quarter dance. It was fun no regrets. -
My worst year of my Life.
So the friendship I had in 7th carried into 8th but adding 1 new member in and there jealousy and hate towards me. Eventually turning the group to kick me out. I then went with a buddy I had in science. She opened me into her life and helped me get through mine. After that friendship grew I regained an old one my ExBsf from Elementary. Things went swell @first. But soon our repeated mishap happened which is us liking the same dude. -
The Beginning to An End.
So I ended up dating her recent now Ex behind her back. Because I was afraid of her being hurt. Knowing well if she found out she'd be hurt and I think I did intentionally to do so like she did to me. I couldn't take it back. She found out and chaos broke obviously so did the all the relationships I made and a new one who used this to take advantage of my despair. I regretted it all and was sent deep into depression. I recovered from so when freshmen year started. -
FreshMeat and Today
Well sorry for those pools of sadness that's my life lol it isn't rad but focused on all that because they've had impact on me. I have been through my personal battles and survived all with the help of others. I couldn't be more thankful for the people & Speedy who were there for me, without them I wouldn't be here. My depression has improved significantly since then. I can say that I look forward to my future. Yes there'll be hard times but I'll get through them,hopefully all will:)<3