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religious
"Why do I pray? Strange question. Why did I live? why did I breathe? -
doubting religion/becoming faithless
"for the first time, I felt anger rising within me. Why should I sanctify His name? The Almighty, the eternal and terrible Master of the Universe, chose to be silent. What was there to thank Him for? Also pg 20 "Oh God, Master..." Also "Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever." -
losing/lost faith/hopelessness
Also "Blessed be God's name?
Why, but why would I bless Him? Every fiber in me rebelled. Because He caused thousands of children to burn in His mass graves? Because he kept 6 crematoria working day and night, even on Sabbath and holy days?" pg 67 "My eyes had opened and I was alone, terribly alone in a world without God, without man. Without love or mercy. I was nothing but ashes now..."